Yes, it is that time of the month again, and I am so sad. I am so tired of going down this road, month after month I wait for AF NOT to arrive, and month after month I get sad. When will I stop feeling this pain? Will I ever? It is strange how so many people pray for AF to arrive, and then they are late, and then they get a BFP, and then they do what they can to get ‘rid’ of it. It just seems so unfair that good people, like P and I have to go through this.
A friend of mine and I were talking about this the other day and she was agreeing with me, and she has 4 children. She was telling me that when her and her hubby were trying for there 3rd child after the third month of trying she was really hurting, she couldn’t understand how I have been able to cope for 2,5 years
I am feeling so many emotions, sadness, anger, jeolousy, annoyed and so many other emotions I dont know how to express them. The most powerful emotion however is anger, I am so angry at everyone and everything and with that anger comes questions. Why did I get dealth this hand in life? Why cant something good happen to me? Am I really such a bad person that I dont deserve to be happy? After all I have cant through isn’t it my time now? When will it be about me?AAAAAAAAARG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I WANT MY HAPPY ENDING!!!!!!
I can really relate to your post. I’ve often felt short changed too. But the only thing we can do is soldier on, and sooner or later your time WILL come. Hang in there hon.
HUGE HUGS…been there and I can relate to your feelings. It helped me to pour out my anger on God by yelling out my frustration…’coz after that a type of calmness blanketed me – it came when I realized that God knew what I was thinking even before I said those words to Him, so He could handle my anger. After that, my prayers become:
“God, grant me the serenity to accept the things I can’t change, courage to change the things I can change, and wisdom to know the difference…”
For me it’s helped…you should try finding something that works for you…