So one of my favorite Artists is Daughtry – they have amazing songs with amazing lyrics and at the moment one of my favorite songs is All These Lives, how sad are these lyrics
All These Lives – daughtry
Doesn’t come down when she calls,
“It’s time for breakfast.”
Momma can’t get down those halls
Fast enough to see
Glass is sprayed across the floor
From the broken window.
She can’t breathe anymore.
Can’t deny what we know.
They’re gonna find you, just believe.
You’re not a person; you’re a disease.
All these lives that you’ve been taking,
Deep inside, my heart is breaking.
Broken homes from separation.
Don’t you know it’s violation?
It’s so wrong, but you’ll see.
Never gonna let you take my world from me.
The world outside these walls may know you’re breathing,
But you ain’t comin’ in.
You ain’t comin’ in.
Posters hung on building walls
Of missing faces.
Months go by without the cause,
The clues, or traces.
They’re gonna find you, just believe.
You’re not a person; you’re a disease.
All these lives that you’ve been taking,
Deep inside, my heart is breaking.
Broken homes from separation.
Don’t you know it’s violation?
It’s so wrong, but you’ll see.
Never gonna let you take my world from me.
The world outside these walls may know you’re breathing,
But you ain’t comin’ in.
Shed the light on all the ones who never thought they would become
A father, mother asking why this world can be so cold.
Doesn’t come down when she calls,
“It’s time for breakfast.”
The memories begin to fall.
She asks, “When will I be free?”
All these lives that you’ve been taking,
Deep inside, my heart is breaking.
Broken homes from separation.
Don’t you know it’s violation?
It’s so wrong, but you’ll see.
Never gonna let you take my world from me.
The world outside these walls may know you’re breathing,
But you ain’t comin’ in.
All these lives that you’ve been taking,
Deep inside, my heart is breaking.
All these lives that you’ve been taking,
Deep inside, my heart is breaking.
All these lives that you’ve been taking,
Deep inside, my heart is breaking.
The world outside these walls may know you’re breathing,
The world outside these walls may know you’re breathing,
But you ain’t comin’ in.
Pretty hectic hey? “You’re not a person, you’re a disease” Wow, imagine saying that to someone? That is a diffrent kind of insult, and yet whenever there is only one person i think of, i used to work with her and she was a BITCH. But i would never say that to her.
So i was listening to this song earlier, and started crying. I have had such a terrible day today, you know the kind of day when you just wish you get climb back into bed and only wake up tomorrow, i have been having one of those days.
So i skyped my mom, and she just reminded me that it could be worse…and she is right, but although it does help, a little it still doesn’t make your day better. I have been having such a hard time dealing with my emotions lately. I am down at work, i can let my emotions just be, but when i am with P and at home i have to be strong, he doesn’t like seeing me down, because he thinks its his fault. He thinks that when i am down it is because we dont have children, and although that sometimes is the reason, it is not always. I can just have a bad day, a down day, especially when it is that time of the month. Today i am exceptionally emotional, i feel sad, empty, tired, and just want the year to come to an end now, it has been a tough year, and i am tired. It has been an uneventful year yet again for me, no big news, no big steps, all hopes have been shattered. I feel as though my heart is bleeding into my soul, and my soul just wants to get out of my body but it cant because it is trapped. I feel trapped. I feel trapped in my life…how sad is that.
Hey Mel, I’m so sorry you feel so low, there really is nothing you can do about it but just put one foot in front of the other, at some point everything changes, we just have to wait.
Which is the hardest part I know, but life just works that way.
And remember, we only really have today, tomorrow hasn’t come yet and the past is over, so live for today only, I find that helps me when I can’t see past the pain and the heartache.
Take care of yourself.
Ag I’m so sorry you’re having such a terrible time Mel, I wish I had words to console you, but I have none. Amanda is right, baby steps is all you can manage right now, take it one step at a time. As for not being able to share with P, I think you should maybe just have a chat to him, and ask him that if you’re feeling down that he shouldn’t automatically think its his fault, all you need is a hug and a few nice words, it’s impossible for someone to be on top of the world all the time and that every now and again you do need him to be there for you.
(((HUGS)))